The Fashion Show
About a month ago in October, I had the opportunity to walk in the Anthropologie Fall Fashion show in Philadelphia. I can’t even believe I just typed those words! Let’s just say at 5’3”, I didn’t think walking in a fashion show was in the cards for me. There were so many reasons for me to say no. One, I have no experience walking in a fashion show, 2. I just had a baby and i’m not where I want to be with my post-baby body, and 3. what if I fall and become fashion road kill?? Comment below if you know what movie that line is from!
This year, I told myself I would say YES and push myself to do things I never would have even considered. So I said yes and i’m so glad I did. I honestly almost chickened out on my way to the fitting. And then again in the taxi as I googled “how to walk in a fashion show.” And then yet again as I walked up the steps into the Anthropologie building. Julian and my sister-in-law, Kaitlin, came to support me and I think that was probably the only thing that kept me from running away.
The show was a blast. As we were getting dressed, we drank champagne and snacked on some delicious finger food. There was so much excitement in the air and everyone was incredibly kind and happy to be there. Walking down the spiral staircase, the only thing I was thinking about was, “don’t trip, don’t trip, don’t trip.”
We did two rounds and it lasted about 5 minutes. As we did our final walk, I looked out at all the people watching (about 200 and there was a waitlist!), and had that feeling you get when you try something new and it ends up being an incredibly positive experience. It was a really happy moment.
The Year of Yes
From meeting with PR firms, collaborating with some wonderful companies, and working with incredible brands, this was the year of YES. I told myself in January that instead of doubting myself and my blog, I was going to go all in and stop making excuses. In February 2013, I started my blog (you can see my very first post here and my first outfit post here!) and since then it’s been on and off depending on what else was going in my life.
I decided I was finally going to prioritize it because it mattered to me and it mattered to my readers. Writing was a moment of serenity for me that wasn’t readily available at the time as I was chasing my career. The practical side of me told me to stop wasting my time; nothing would come out of it. I was constantly beating myself down by not having enough self-confidence to believe that this was a possibility. One day, I decided that I wasn’t going to keep doubting myself. I didn’t want to look back and wonder why I was too scared to believe in myself. I reasoned with myself that even if the blog didn’t amount to anything, at least I went for it.
So here I am walking in my first fashion show. No, I don’t think i’m an aspiring model. I just think it’s so fun to be exposed to new experiences and always push yourself to learn and grow.
I tend to second-guess myself and attribute my accomplishments to luck. A part of me still thinks that I’m a Pharmacist because of luck. But it’s not luck. The older I get, the more I realize that things don’t just magically come together. I create my own successes with persistence, drive, dedication and grit. My only regret is that I wish I had more confidence in myself when I started my blog. I never thought my writing or style were good enough. Four years later, I now have the courage to believe in myself and my ability to create and grow a business.
One Day to Day One
I only mention these things because this is what it takes to go from one day to day one. Had I not one day decided to believe in myself and was fortunate enough to have people who believed in me, this wouldn’t have happened. I never would have had the nerve to direct message Anthropologie to see if they had any openings in their upcoming show. And they did. And they said yes. That’s basically how it happened!
I have actually been shy my entire life and consider myself an introvert. The blog started as collages of looks I loved and articles about starting a career and living in the city. The idea of turning the camera on myself never really crossed my mind. One day, my friend suggested I post the outfits I wear on a daily basis so readers get a sense of my personal style and how these clothes look in real life. It was a turning point for the blog and has really pushed me to be more outgoing and share more of myself with the world.
If you’re reading this and thinking of pursuing a passion that doesn’t seem very practical, think about what your success looks like. Create the life that you want to live. It’s not going to happen overnight. It may take years. But what can you do TODAY to get yourself to where you want to be? I have a long way to go to really take Street Style Philosophy to where I want it to go. However, everyday I try to make a little baby step.
Whether it’s posting on Instagram, writing a blog post or attending an event, I try to do something small that will get me closer to my goals. Eventually, I know that everything will add up to how it’s supposed to be. So whatever you keep convincing yourself you’re not good enough to do…do it. You may find yourself walking in a fall fashion show one day.
Photos by Joe Mac Photography
My outfit details: T-shirt: Anthropologie | Pants: Anthropologie | Earrings: Anthropologie (I kept the earrings as a momento of the experience) | Heels: Kendall + Kylie